Heartfelt message⛳️❤️

I shared this on instagram and it only felt natural to want to share this with you all. I’m sorry it’s long…❤️🥺

A LETTER TO THE PERSON WHO NEEDS TO KNOW THEY’RE GOING TO BE OKAY 🤍

I want to preface this by saying that this is probably going to be a long caption. But if you have a minute, I hope you read it.

Because this post isn’t really about LPGA Q-School.

Well, it is. But it’s also about so much more than that.

I’m headed to Q-School again.

And if you’ve followed me for a while, you know this isn’t my first time trying to make it through.

I’ve been here before. I’ve had other opportunities, other years, other moments where I thought, maybe this is the year everything comes together.

And the last couple of years have been some of the hardest years of my life.

I think sometimes when we look back at things that didn’t go the way we wanted, we automatically label them as failures. We tell ourselves we weren’t good enough, we didn’t work hard enough, or we should have done something differently.

And maybe there are things I could have done differently.

But when I look back at the last couple of years, I don’t see a golfer who simply didn’t perform.

I see a person who was going through a really challenging season of life.

And I think there’s a difference.

Because sometimes you’re trying to compete, perform, build a career, and chase a dream while also trying to figure out how to hold yourself together.

And that’s not always something people see.

They see the score.

They see the result.

They see whether you made it through or whether you didn’t.

But they don’t always see everything you were carrying when you showed up.

I’ve carried a lot over the last few years.

And I’m not sharing that because I want anyone to feel sorry for me. I’m sharing it because I think it’s important to be honest about the fact that life doesn’t always move in a straight line.

Sometimes you can work incredibly hard and still find yourself in a season you never expected.

Sometimes you can love something deeply and still have to question what place it should have in your life.

And sometimes the biggest thing you accomplish isn’t what everyone else gets to see.

For me, this year has been about proving something to myself.

That I can keep going.

That I can make changes.

That I can take a step back, look at my life, and decide that I want to do things differently.

That I can keep showing up for myself, even when I don’t know exactly where this path is going to lead.

And honestly, I’m proud of that.

I’m proud of the work I’ve put in this year. I’m proud of the person I’ve been working to become. I’m proud that I haven’t allowed the difficult parts of my life to completely take away my ability to dream.

But here’s the part that feels different this time.

Whether I make it through Q-School, earn Epson Tour status, earn LPGA Tour status, or walk away without status at all, I know that none of those outcomes can take away the work I’ve already done.

And I really want to let that sink in.

Because for a long time, I think I attached so much of my happiness and my sense of success to whether or not I was going to make it.

And of course I want to make it. I want to compete at the highest level. I want to see what I’m capable of. I want to give this dream everything I have.

That hasn’t changed.

But I’ve also learned that my life is bigger than one result.

Bigger than one tournament.

Bigger than whether I get the status I’ve been chasing.

And maybe that’s something you’re learning in your own life, too.

Maybe you’ve spent years working toward something, and you’re starting to realize that you can be proud of yourself before you ever reach the destination.

Maybe you’re in a season where you don’t know if the thing you’ve been chasing is still the direction you’re supposed to go.

And maybe that’s okay.

I don’t know exactly what my future looks like.

Maybe golf continues to take me places I haven’t been yet.

Maybe my path changes in ways I can’t see right now.

Maybe life opens doors that have nothing to do with the things I originally thought I wanted.

And for the first time in a long time, I think I’m learning to be okay with not needing to know all of that today.

Not because I don’t care.

Not because I’ve stopped fighting for the things I want.

But because I’ve finally started to understand that I can love the dream and still trust that my life will be meaningful, even if the path changes.

That’s a really freeing feeling.

And it’s one I wish I could go back and tell the younger version of myself.

The little girl who wanted to play professional golf.

The girl who thought she had to make it a certain way for her life to turn out okay.

I would tell her that she’s going to experience things she never expected.

That some years are going to hurt more than she can imagine.

That she’s going to question herself.

But I would also tell her that she is going to discover a strength she didn’t know she had.

And that strength isn’t just about how hard she can fight for a dream.

It’s about how willing she is to keep choosing herself, no matter where life takes her.

So, here I am.

LPGA Q-School again.

I’m going to compete. I’m going to work hard. I’m going to give this opportunity everything I have.

And I’m going to let myself be proud of the person who made it here.

Regardless of what happens next.

Because this year has already given me something I can’t put on a leaderboard.

It has given me the proof that I can keep going.

And that’s enough to make this moment really special.

If you’re reading this and you’re in a season where you don’t know what’s next, I hope you know that you don’t have to figure it all out right now.

You can work toward something and still be open to a different direction.

You can be proud of your progress without having reached your goal.

And you can trust that your life has value, even when the outcome you’re hoping for hasn’t happened yet.

I’m still chasing this dream.

But I’m also learning that I am so much more than the dream.

And whatever comes next, I’m grateful that I get to find out.

🤍

Q-SCHOOL BOUND.

Let’s go. 🏌️‍♀️